have you?

im not too interested with today's football match.
boring, so im gonna post somethin.
somethin not too important, but i want to share.

may i ask u, have u ever felt like no one trust u,
no one can be trusted,
n dnt know where to go when u r feeling like something broken?

why? i've been like that. not too long from now, seems like at the same year.
2010 makes me feels like a stupid. i dont know why, i used to be an invisble people. I didn't too brave to tell anything that i've felt and did to people around me.

there's always a big WHY. WHY??? I dnt know.

I just feel like im too weird to be their friend.....i feel like i dont be the same like the others, i cant do what the others do. tell anything up on social networks, anything from heart without a fake. i dont know why, i just feel like

"Hello, im here. i have my own heart, quotes, that only for me. nobody should know those all. There will only make people confused of me. so why dont i keep all those inside alone? although it would making me so lonely or whatever, but its comfortable i think"

actually,
if i dnt too tough to keep them all alone, i always share them to my private blog. it seems like my best listener, ever. i know iknow, it wouldn't give me any solution. at least i feel better.

you all may think im kinda crazy, weird, insane or whatever. but you have to know, i feel comfort with this. although sometimes i feel like cant handle my self, then i always believe in god. god will always help me.

you may think this is a bullshit. up2u
Reality says that ive to be changed. get into new me and new life.
I'll try hard to be a better person, not being that i used to be.

Wish me luck for that!